To Not Be Okay.

(So I was supposed to write a poem from my future 50- year old self to my present 22 year old self, this is what I came up with. x)

To Not Be Okay.

If there’s anything I would ever like you to think

Or say

Or do

Or believe

It would be

That it is okay.

It’s okay to not be okay

It’s okay to not feel okay

It’s okay to cry

It’s okay to feel guilty

It’s okay to fail

It’s also okay to only pass

It’s okay to not be perfect

And it’s okay to not chase perfection.

It’s okay to be flawed

Have imperfections

Have countless doubts

Feel stupid from time to time

There’s no deep engrained need to make sense of everything

That’s what time is for

You don’t have to be Hercules, even he had an Achilles heel.

It’s okay.

It’s okay if some-days you want to flee instead of fighting.

It’s okay to feel like a coward once a while,

Only till you come back stronger, braver, smarter.

With age comes wisdom,

And if these 50 years have given me any.

They’ve taught me it’s okay to not be okay.

So smile a bit wider

Laugh a bit louder

Live a little grander

Because it’ll all be okay.



People often say there is no good in goodbyes, but you know what? Sometimes there is.

Sometimes you just have to let an old dress, habit or person go.

Because if you didn’t, they’ll just occupy space, time and emotions you would rather use somewhere else. They’ll just sit there making you dizzy at the thought of letting go. Because why would you want to part with something that’s been a part of your life for so long right? It sounds mental.

Because it is mental, it’s all in your head. You can’t let that dress go because you have so many good memories of you wearing it, you can’t let that habit go because it became a habit to give you some structure, and you can’t let that person go because once upon a time they were so very important to you, maybe they still are.

But sometimes, being important and being stagnant in your life can be the same thing.

You can’t let someone go because you love them, but if you start questioning the reasons why you do love them and start coming up blank, you have to let it go.

So you hold on to that person, trying to tell yourself that you’re being crazy that this person has been there for me countless number of times and I can’t just throw it all away.

But when was the last time they were there for you?

And when was the last time they reminded you of all the reasons you love them for?

And when you start realising that it’s just you holding the thread between the two of you, you have let that thread go, because a thread between two people needs to be held from both sides.

So let that dress go to someone who would make some of their happy memories in.

Let that habit slowly disappear to fill your life with another one that will benefit you now.

And, let that person go, because the more you question your feelings towards them, the more you’re going away from each other.




The Girl on The Train the latest book to movie adaptation on the block failed to thrill us like its book counterpart. But why didn’t Rachel’s voyeuristic alcoholic ways and Meghan’s trapped wild-spirit capture our minds on the big screen?

Why is it that out of all the recent book to movie adaptations only a handful of them made an impact and reached up to the level of its book counterpart?

There are many examples of successful book to movie adaptations, but to each successful one there are 10 unsuccessful ones.

Where Harry Potter and Lord of the Ring made a mark in the world of cinema and on the minds of all the fans, movies like The Maze Runner, Allegiant failed to make you feel anything, except maybe pity.

It’s not that only a good book can be adapted into a good movie, a good book is necessary yes, but a good script is imperative. The Godfather for example, an exceptional book, is an even more extraordinary movie.

There are obviously some pros and cons to book to movie adaptations, let’s take a look:



·       You get the Full Story. ·       You get the full story, without the unnecessary parts.
·       You can imagine the character exactly the way you like him/her. ·       Gives the character a face.
·       Reaches the targeted audience. ·       Reaches a larger audience
·       Let’s you imagine the world it takes place in. ·       Gives you a glimpse of the world.
·       All characters add their own different charm to the story ·       Some characters are omitted from the storyline! (Looking at you Harry Potter, we wanted Peeves!)

But what about the look and the feel?

Can you describe how it feels to smell a new book? Your anticipation to watch the new movie adapted from your favourite book?


The world is firmly divided into 2 types of people, people who think the book was better, and people who think the movie was better.

A booklover can tell you a characters past, present and future, shoot all your claims down that the movie had all the important parts required for the story, but that is the difference between these two types of people! A booklover won’t mind sitting for an 8 hour movie if it claims to include every little thing in the book, whereas the second type of people won’t find it practical. It’s a thin line, a very conscious divide and an eternal battle.

But the bottom line will always be the same, if you adapt a book right, it will unite these two types of people. If you don’t the battle will forever rage on.


Favorite Quotes from The Mortal Instruments: City of Glass.

“Normal isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.” – Luke Garroway.

“If I feel The urge to burst into flames, I’ll let you know.” – Simon Lewis.


“Just because you have power doesn’t mean you know how to use it” – Luke Garroway.

“Some laws were meant to be broken”- Luke Garroway.

“I find reflection absolutely centres the mind” – inquisitor Aldertree.

“Appearances are significant, and never more than in politics.” – Inquisitor Aldertree.

” You can always sway the crowd provided you have a good story”-Inquisitor Aldertree

“It depends on whether the idea of being merciful makes him feel powerful at the time” – Samuel Blackburn.

“Isn’t there always a girl “- Samuel Blackburn.

“Maybe you just never know what it was like to want something you couldn’t have before” – Alec Lightwood.

“Love makes us liars” – Jace Wayland.

“You’re not happy to see me,then? I have to say,I’m surprised. I’ve always been told my presence brightened up any room. One might think that went doubly for dank  underground cells” – Jace Wayland.

“Were you ever a waiter?”

“No but I was brought up by a Frenchwoman,” Sebastian reminded her. “It involved an even more rigorous course of training.”

“Regret is such a pointless emotion, don’t you agree?” – Magnus Bane.

“A true vampire knows he’s dead, he accepts his death.But you, you think you are still one of the living. It is what makes you so dangerous.” Raphael Santiago.

“You cannot acknowledged that you are no longer alive” – Raphael Santiago.

“Everything falls someday” – Samuel Blackburn.

“What kind of a walk takes six hours?”

“A long one?” Jace suggested.

“You had to make a crazy jail friend, didn’t you? You couldn’t just count ceiling tiles or tame a pet mouse like normal prisoners do?” Jace Wayland to Simon Lewis.

“People aren’t born good or bad. Maybe they’re born with tenencies either way, but its the way you live your life that matters” – Simon Lewis.

“But even the cleverest puzzle has a solution” – Lucian Graymark

“Of course you’re not,” said Jace , “Because you live to torture me,dont you?”

“Not everything ,Jace , is about you,'” Clary said furiously.

“There is no pretending, ” Jace said with absolute clarity.  “I love you,and I will love you until I die, and if there’s a life after that, I’ll love you then.”

“Knowing is better than not knowing. Every time.” – Clary Fray.

“It’s easy to be afraid of what you don’t share ” – Clary Fray.

“You’re killing me because you want me to give a message to God for you? You’re crazier than I thought.”- Jace Wayland.

Adventures of Cheesecake and Cookie #3

The bass thumping through the floor worried Cheesecake. It had been two days since he last spoke to Cookie and he had hung up, raging. But after 2 days of thinking about it he had calmed down and decided it was a minor misunderstanding.

Until he reached the building.

And felt the bass thumping on every floorboard.

In a 4 floored apartment building with not more than 20 apartments, they were one of the few young couples who even threw a party, especially a party to this extent.

He wondered why the neighbours weren’t shouting.

His 5 day trip to the Capital had been productive, but tiring and he was looking forward to leaving their fight behind and snuggling up to Cookie. But Cookie had different plans.

Sure enough, the party was at their apartment and it was in full swing. Beer cans dotted the living room floor and their dining table was used to play beer pong. He looked around wildly trying to search for Cookie but only found people making out in the corner, none of them thankfully, being Cookie.

He proceeded to search everywhere, junkies raided their fridge while some sat on the floor too gone to comprehend and the closed bathroom, stunk of weed.

He finally found his friends in the balcony stuck in a game of truth and dare, but Cookie wasn’t with them either, exhausted he decided to sit down for a while.

“Where’s Cookie?” he asked anxiously.

“She disappeared a long time ago” Someone answered.

“Disappeared?” He echoed, as Alarm bells rang in his head, his mind conjuring up all sorts of scenarios.

“Yeah like inside” The same person said, shrugging, ”You wanna join?”

“Inside where exactly?” Cheesecake asked, willing himself to calm down, “No thanks.”

“The bedroom,” One of Cookie’s girlfriends answered and Cheesecake took off, not even stopping to thank the kind soul.

“Cookie?” He knocked, “Cookie open up!”

There was no answer, he looked around the long corridor connecting the living room and their bedroom, only a handful of people milled around here, no one bothering to even look at him, he was instantly annoyed, the tiredness seeping through his bones.

“COOKIE!” He shouted, but heard nothing. He resorted to banging the door and a loud cheer went through the corridor, all the 6 people milling around smiled at him. He went back to banging.

Every ‘Cookie’ was met with a cheer, like a rhythmic cycle he wanted to say it annoyed him more, but it didn’t. He went on and on and on.

To finally when a small voice shouted “Coming, hang on a second!”

He exhaled a breath he didn’t even know he was holding, excitement of seeing Cookie again, waking his tired brain up, he smiled.

“What is it?” A very annoyed Cookie, snapped, with freshly washed hair tied up in a towel and the smell of spiced vanilla in the air. Her expression morphed from annoyed to shock as soon as he eyes landed on her beloved and she threw herself at him, Cheesecake crushed her to him. The annoyance at the fight, the tiredness of the flight and the anxiousness of not seeing her all melted away as his hands wound themselves around her, crushing her tiny body to his, not willing to let go.

But they did, Cookie pulled him in and shut the door, leaning against it, she eyed him. He stared back, for a long time none of them said a word, “Why throw a party when all you’re going to do is take a hot bath and read?”

He knew her too well, she almost smiled, but then remembered the reason she pulled away. She crossed her arms, “Have you realised it was your fault?”

“It wasn’t just my fault! You overreacted.”

“You went out with you ex-girlfriend and didn’t even bother informing me.” She scoffed.

“That’s because I didn’t know it’ll be such a  big deal,” he said, exasperated, “you know I work with her!”

“You could’ve still informed me.”She pointed out.

It was true he could’ve but he didn’t, instead they had a fight about how stupid she was sounding and how crazy he was being. He looked away.

“You’re an asshole,” a very angry kitten said.

He almost smiled at her harmless, angry face, “Yes, but I’m your asshole.”